Real life, Second Life and Insanity in Both

Yeah, I'm still on Second Life, not as addicted to horses....this time, is teh seckz on a fantasy roleplaying sim--rape and forced sex fantasies. Now, before you go and rant and rage at me for roleplaying rape and sex, I must point out a few things:

1. It's ROLEPLAYING!!!!! It's not....real. It's virtual kinks and fetishes! Hell, there are even CRAZIER fetishes out there! Just look at my F-list and hover over each of them for an explanation. See? There's vore and other such things, like "Watersports" that involves urinating....UGH! I may be nuts but I'm not THAT nuts......
2. Even though it has the theme of rape and forced sex and even torture, I, as a person, do not condone these acts of violence as being okay. I understand that there are people out there who are victimized and violated by rape, sexual harassment, sexual violence, torture, and other injustices. I agree with those people that it is nightmarish in the sense that you are violated against your will. However, I stand by point #1 with an addition to that: this is all consensual after all, but people are roleplaying it out as rape and forced sex and torture; it's not real rape or sex or torture. It's a roleplaying theme with dark urban tones and to add to the credibility, I don't always do the rape and sex; I also roleplay following a storyline. Much like I do in other places, like Insilico and Siden.

With that all stated, don't think any less of me for fantasizing being attacked in a horrible fashion.....I don't even want to be hurt that way. It is a way from my character to react; she doesn't have to consent to the action, even though I usually do......

Another part of Second Life I'm quite enjoying is Assassin's Grid, a game that's sort of Mafia Wars style but different: you "claim" lands on various sims like a gang "claims" land as part of their territory, you harvest items from them and use those items to craft things to help you survive longer or to make your land stronger. You can form teams and operate under factions like "Deathslayers" and "Assassins".....but I usually do it OOC unless there's some roleplay that I can incorporate into it....mostly because of inspiration and there's other roleplaying going on.... but there were times when you have to just LOL at the insanity of SL..... Like in the most recent of sim claims, there's a Tokyo City.....and when we arrived, a friend I had teamed up with, she said this:

[02:32] Danja Resident: of COURSE its a BDSM park

Now, I have to agree with her--SL = Sex Life. It's where you are in a glorified chat room referred to as a Virtual World.....and you can fuck people on it. It is Sex....and virtual.....cybersex plus porn and a dude walking around with his pants falling off and you just can't help comparing the prim junk he's wearing to a lightly tanned golden turd sculpted smooth.
Yet, AG (Assassin's Grid, I'm with the Assassins, teamed up with Danja and with the Urbanites) is great to play, especially when you figure out "gf" doesn't mean "girlfriend" but rather "good fight"....Yeah, it's hard to get started all the time, especially since people keep killing you all the time because you're easy to kill and power up from..... After dealing with a death at the sim of LOL (I kid you not, there is such a sim!), the following happened:

[01:47] ChallengeRegion: You have died and have forfeited your challenge!
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea: HEY
[01:47] [AG] Assassin HUD v3.1 (wear me):
**GRID EVENT** jazzy Kayo has assassinated Eden Pyrithea **GRID EVENT**
[01:47] jazzy Kayo shouts: gf
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea: i didn't even--i was distracted!
[01:47] jazzy Kayo: hey there :)
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea flaiiilllllssss
[01:47] jazzy Kayo: lol
[01:47] jazzy Kayo: u gota keep an eye out for me lol
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea: you took advantage! this is fight rape FIGHT RAPE
[01:48] jazzy Kayo: lmaao lol

I was obviously kidding about it....but it was true! Like I was working on a blog and all of a sudden, she showed up and I was moving windows around for optimal multitasking, but I saw the messages and she assassinated me! While I was distracted! Ugh, frustrating! But I was able to take on some great sims! And some I selected solely based on names..... :3

On a seperate note, I have to thank NicoleX Moonwall SOOOO MUCH for the opportunity for being in a video made in SL!!!!! It was so awesome! Of course, I was wearing an outfit from Graves Latex and Leather.....and hair from FallnAngels Creations.....with skin as a prize from the Twisted Hunt and using a dance HUD that was given to me by a friend.....but it turned out to be awesome. It was mostly set on a sim that was just very cool, the Spencer Museum of Art and it's so steampunkish and dark and surreal that I looooove it! Helicopter sheep, living prims, bouncing easy chairs......it's just the place for me to hang out and think of the beauty of the decay of life gone past and the power of imagination gone out of control..... So, I'm one of the dancers in the video and a couple of friends are also in the video.....The result of all of us together dancing in a spot on that one sim is Spirit's Dream, a very surreal trip through music and imagination.
See if you can find me! >:3

If you can't see the video via embed, clicky here!

But I'm risking failure by doing this blog instead of doing research for my portfolio for English which is due (at the time of my doing this blog post) in less than 3 hours.....*gulp* Damn exams and damn parents...gonna be heading home tomorrow (on the 7th of May, 2011).....and suffering....will explain more another time.
Til then....PUNK OUT OR BUST!!!!! \o/

New Year, Old School

After the ball (or Peep) drops and the babysitting detail, the monster headaches and cell phone deaths, the embarrassing text messages and the sauerkraut smell, I began my new year with new thoughts, new directions, a clean slate and a whole lot of incentive to do better than last year's failure of a semester. Fall semester, I ended up prioritizing right, then screwing it all up; it's almost like I was building a tower with blocks, as anybody would in their childhood, but then I deliberately smash it and create a mess just because I want to play video games instead. I admit that I may have gotten hooked even harder on Second Life, this time with a metaphorical steel harpoon instead of a measly little fish hook.....but I now know what it takes for me to do so much better than last semester.

The following is a carrot-on-a-stick plan for success:

1. If I do all my work on time/early and SUBMIT it, in addition to making it to all of my classes, going to all the study hall sessions, going to work-study when I am scheduled to instead of skipping out (or call when I can't make it), and maintaining acceptable hygiene, I get paid money. Approximately $10 USD a week, in cash. Which is good because there's a Linkin Park concert in Cincinatti that I can't pass up!
   
   
2. If I screw up like I did last time, by skipping class to roleplay on Second Life and thereby causing my grades to slip, then one of the GMs at the cyberpunk location that I roleplay at has no reservations about using the banhammer on me from both the location AND the Ning site that is associated with it! And I don't think I want that..... No, seriously, I really don't want to be banned from where I can chill and hang and be creative. Plus, bannage is worse than a missed concert. Much worse.
   
   
3. I have a whole team of friends with a variety of backgrounds (real life Girl Scouts and associations with my real life sister, Second Life roleplaying, etc.) who are willing to whip my ass to make sure I stay on task before I get to do any fun stuffs. Sure, it'll get annoying as all fuck after a while, but now I understand their reasoning: they want me to succeed and enjoy all the good things, all the rewards of doing well. They really care about me, in fact. So I pretty much owe it to them by doing well and be all like, "I know, you care! You really care! So I'm doing this for you! Just because you care!" But I think I will need random reminders every once in a while about this particular scenario.
4. I have resources available to me. Why don't I use them? Why don't I use the Writing Center or the tutoring program here at the college? I shouldn't be afraid to ask for help. This isn't high school at all. High school is back home in Pennsylvania. This is West Virginia. Significant others can kick people's asses if it's to defend their girlfriends here! And I don't have a history with anybody--I can reinvent myself all over, and not care who gives a shit!

So, really, I have to get this semester going well for me. I mean, it's my totally-never-ever-gonna-get-another-one last shot at good grades. And good grades are important because it has to do with funding; I must maintain an agreed-upon cumulative average (at the very least) to keep the funding. Because Marshall is fucking EXPENSIVE. I don't have very many scholarships and the Office of Vocational Rehabilitation is helping fund my education because it's a form of training, in fact. And because there's a certain program that they're paying for because my family can't. We're not poor but we're not rich either.

So in order for me to do well, I have to knock it off with all the failing I've been doing last semester, put my head down and charge forward. Sure, I'll run into walls but the walls are MY fault. Why shouldn't I do this? That's what I'll be asking myself from now on, if I get stuck in fighting the need to do something that I know I have to do.

So, aside from dreaming about things, plotting other things, being vague and going back for one more round with college, life seems to be good.

I'll wrap this up with a video from YouTube. Nuff said.

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Freewrite #4

Lately, a friend of mine has been taking care of a baby squirrel in her home when the squirrel's own mother abandoned it. Some pictures can be seen here. Anyways, I've been thinking: why have strange exotic animals as pets? And when i say "exotic," I mean along the lines of lions, monkeys, tigers, etc. People would go to great lengths to smuggle them past Customs and into the USA, and this would put them into great danger of getting seriously hurt or even killed. I know that there are people out there who keep squirrels, chipmunks and possums as pets, but really? The people who can shelter them......it shouldn't be you, me, a neighbor or any average person. It should be a vet, a wildlife conservationist, a zoologist, a zookeeper, or people licensed to handle and treat wild animals or whatever.

I confess: I would love to own a squirrel as a pet, for the simple owning of one and the insanity that comes with the idea. (That's Rachel-logic leaking through. Sorry! Usually, nobody understands it......but anyways.....) It would be purely funny. And squirrels are cute........

But it doesn't mean that I can just take care of it all willy-nilly; I might do something wrong in the care and keeping of a squirrel. I mean, the one squirrel that my friend was taking care of died yesterday while in their care, which is really sad--no animals should have to die through the mistakes made through someone's good intentions.......

So, please leave the squirrel-keeping to the professionals and the truly insane.......