Real life, Second Life and Insanity in Both

Yeah, I'm still on Second Life, not as addicted to horses....this time, is teh seckz on a fantasy roleplaying sim--rape and forced sex fantasies. Now, before you go and rant and rage at me for roleplaying rape and sex, I must point out a few things:

1. It's ROLEPLAYING!!!!! It's not....real. It's virtual kinks and fetishes! Hell, there are even CRAZIER fetishes out there! Just look at my F-list and hover over each of them for an explanation. See? There's vore and other such things, like "Watersports" that involves urinating....UGH! I may be nuts but I'm not THAT nuts......
2. Even though it has the theme of rape and forced sex and even torture, I, as a person, do not condone these acts of violence as being okay. I understand that there are people out there who are victimized and violated by rape, sexual harassment, sexual violence, torture, and other injustices. I agree with those people that it is nightmarish in the sense that you are violated against your will. However, I stand by point #1 with an addition to that: this is all consensual after all, but people are roleplaying it out as rape and forced sex and torture; it's not real rape or sex or torture. It's a roleplaying theme with dark urban tones and to add to the credibility, I don't always do the rape and sex; I also roleplay following a storyline. Much like I do in other places, like Insilico and Siden.

With that all stated, don't think any less of me for fantasizing being attacked in a horrible fashion.....I don't even want to be hurt that way. It is a way from my character to react; she doesn't have to consent to the action, even though I usually do......

Another part of Second Life I'm quite enjoying is Assassin's Grid, a game that's sort of Mafia Wars style but different: you "claim" lands on various sims like a gang "claims" land as part of their territory, you harvest items from them and use those items to craft things to help you survive longer or to make your land stronger. You can form teams and operate under factions like "Deathslayers" and "Assassins".....but I usually do it OOC unless there's some roleplay that I can incorporate into it....mostly because of inspiration and there's other roleplaying going on.... but there were times when you have to just LOL at the insanity of SL..... Like in the most recent of sim claims, there's a Tokyo City.....and when we arrived, a friend I had teamed up with, she said this:

[02:32] Danja Resident: of COURSE its a BDSM park

Now, I have to agree with her--SL = Sex Life. It's where you are in a glorified chat room referred to as a Virtual World.....and you can fuck people on it. It is Sex....and virtual.....cybersex plus porn and a dude walking around with his pants falling off and you just can't help comparing the prim junk he's wearing to a lightly tanned golden turd sculpted smooth.
Yet, AG (Assassin's Grid, I'm with the Assassins, teamed up with Danja and with the Urbanites) is great to play, especially when you figure out "gf" doesn't mean "girlfriend" but rather "good fight"....Yeah, it's hard to get started all the time, especially since people keep killing you all the time because you're easy to kill and power up from..... After dealing with a death at the sim of LOL (I kid you not, there is such a sim!), the following happened:

[01:47] ChallengeRegion: You have died and have forfeited your challenge!
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea: HEY
[01:47] [AG] Assassin HUD v3.1 (wear me):
**GRID EVENT** jazzy Kayo has assassinated Eden Pyrithea **GRID EVENT**
[01:47] jazzy Kayo shouts: gf
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea: i didn't even--i was distracted!
[01:47] jazzy Kayo: hey there :)
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea flaiiilllllssss
[01:47] jazzy Kayo: lol
[01:47] jazzy Kayo: u gota keep an eye out for me lol
[01:47] Eden Pyrithea: you took advantage! this is fight rape FIGHT RAPE
[01:48] jazzy Kayo: lmaao lol

I was obviously kidding about it....but it was true! Like I was working on a blog and all of a sudden, she showed up and I was moving windows around for optimal multitasking, but I saw the messages and she assassinated me! While I was distracted! Ugh, frustrating! But I was able to take on some great sims! And some I selected solely based on names..... :3

On a seperate note, I have to thank NicoleX Moonwall SOOOO MUCH for the opportunity for being in a video made in SL!!!!! It was so awesome! Of course, I was wearing an outfit from Graves Latex and Leather.....and hair from FallnAngels Creations.....with skin as a prize from the Twisted Hunt and using a dance HUD that was given to me by a friend.....but it turned out to be awesome. It was mostly set on a sim that was just very cool, the Spencer Museum of Art and it's so steampunkish and dark and surreal that I looooove it! Helicopter sheep, living prims, bouncing easy chairs......it's just the place for me to hang out and think of the beauty of the decay of life gone past and the power of imagination gone out of control..... So, I'm one of the dancers in the video and a couple of friends are also in the video.....The result of all of us together dancing in a spot on that one sim is Spirit's Dream, a very surreal trip through music and imagination.
See if you can find me! >:3

If you can't see the video via embed, clicky here!

But I'm risking failure by doing this blog instead of doing research for my portfolio for English which is due (at the time of my doing this blog post) in less than 3 hours.....*gulp* Damn exams and damn parents...gonna be heading home tomorrow (on the 7th of May, 2011).....and suffering....will explain more another time.
Til then....PUNK OUT OR BUST!!!!! \o/

New Year, Old School

After the ball (or Peep) drops and the babysitting detail, the monster headaches and cell phone deaths, the embarrassing text messages and the sauerkraut smell, I began my new year with new thoughts, new directions, a clean slate and a whole lot of incentive to do better than last year's failure of a semester. Fall semester, I ended up prioritizing right, then screwing it all up; it's almost like I was building a tower with blocks, as anybody would in their childhood, but then I deliberately smash it and create a mess just because I want to play video games instead. I admit that I may have gotten hooked even harder on Second Life, this time with a metaphorical steel harpoon instead of a measly little fish hook.....but I now know what it takes for me to do so much better than last semester.

The following is a carrot-on-a-stick plan for success:

1. If I do all my work on time/early and SUBMIT it, in addition to making it to all of my classes, going to all the study hall sessions, going to work-study when I am scheduled to instead of skipping out (or call when I can't make it), and maintaining acceptable hygiene, I get paid money. Approximately $10 USD a week, in cash. Which is good because there's a Linkin Park concert in Cincinatti that I can't pass up!
   
   
2. If I screw up like I did last time, by skipping class to roleplay on Second Life and thereby causing my grades to slip, then one of the GMs at the cyberpunk location that I roleplay at has no reservations about using the banhammer on me from both the location AND the Ning site that is associated with it! And I don't think I want that..... No, seriously, I really don't want to be banned from where I can chill and hang and be creative. Plus, bannage is worse than a missed concert. Much worse.
   
   
3. I have a whole team of friends with a variety of backgrounds (real life Girl Scouts and associations with my real life sister, Second Life roleplaying, etc.) who are willing to whip my ass to make sure I stay on task before I get to do any fun stuffs. Sure, it'll get annoying as all fuck after a while, but now I understand their reasoning: they want me to succeed and enjoy all the good things, all the rewards of doing well. They really care about me, in fact. So I pretty much owe it to them by doing well and be all like, "I know, you care! You really care! So I'm doing this for you! Just because you care!" But I think I will need random reminders every once in a while about this particular scenario.
4. I have resources available to me. Why don't I use them? Why don't I use the Writing Center or the tutoring program here at the college? I shouldn't be afraid to ask for help. This isn't high school at all. High school is back home in Pennsylvania. This is West Virginia. Significant others can kick people's asses if it's to defend their girlfriends here! And I don't have a history with anybody--I can reinvent myself all over, and not care who gives a shit!

So, really, I have to get this semester going well for me. I mean, it's my totally-never-ever-gonna-get-another-one last shot at good grades. And good grades are important because it has to do with funding; I must maintain an agreed-upon cumulative average (at the very least) to keep the funding. Because Marshall is fucking EXPENSIVE. I don't have very many scholarships and the Office of Vocational Rehabilitation is helping fund my education because it's a form of training, in fact. And because there's a certain program that they're paying for because my family can't. We're not poor but we're not rich either.

So in order for me to do well, I have to knock it off with all the failing I've been doing last semester, put my head down and charge forward. Sure, I'll run into walls but the walls are MY fault. Why shouldn't I do this? That's what I'll be asking myself from now on, if I get stuck in fighting the need to do something that I know I have to do.

So, aside from dreaming about things, plotting other things, being vague and going back for one more round with college, life seems to be good.

I'll wrap this up with a video from YouTube. Nuff said.

See more funny videos and funny pictures at CollegeHumor.

Updates--New Twitter, Second Life and Life in Repeat

Sorry for those who just noticed that I changed my blog settings as well as my profile settings. I might as well start reviewing things (critiquing certain items such as flash and browser games, as well as many Internet sites and the likes) and because I might be tweeting my blog posts, I decided to continue to use my online alias of Eden Pyrithea rather than my real life name because I like the anonymity and the protection it provides me. That being said, let's move on to the meat of this post.

Life--I'm back at college, sophomore year, friends with Dexter Manning on my real life Facebook (aka FACEFUCK!) account. Re: Dexter Manning thing--EEEEEP! Unfortunately, my parents are still being pricks about my having a Second Life and so I had to leave my computer behind at home when I moved out here to Collegeland. And I mean the entire computer: tower, monitor, mouse, keyboard, everything--except the headphones and microphones and flash drive. Which means that I can't check in on what I missed over the summer due to the anti-Second Life crackdown my parents are enforcing for "my benefit." And that caused me to miss out on Insilico and Siden Darkest Urban Roleplay action, as well as +DV8+ and Black Maria sales, Bloodlines vampire clan news, Midnight Mania, seasonal grid-wide shopping hunts, my friends and SL family's activities, and the (almost) prime reason why I must get on, which is to get a head start on launching my multi-platform fashion-and-entertainment production company known as Liquid Renegade. I will tell you now--THE NAME IS MINE, DON'T FUCKING TAKE IT OR I'M SUING YOUR ASS(ES)! But I already got started on building it, with a logo of my own design and a CafePress merchandise shop set up! Here's the link....

Also, I've managed to create a very active social life with thanks to the Humans Vs Zombies Game. I met a bunch of great people, several of whom I helped out, and several of whom helped me out. What sucks is that the zombies lost (with me among them) but at least I was able to get started on making many friendships, make a friendship develop further into a special sort of relationship with a particular Harless employee/student, and get involved with Nerf club! ^_^

Second Life is once again absent from my life due to my parents disagreeing with me having one and, as a result, disallowed me from having my computer in my room. So I'm missing major events that'll screw over my character because I was not able to participate in it due to lack of grid access. Which really sucks. At least I was able to get an emergency story arc together briefly off the top of my head, where it has my character Eden being captured and held captive by the gang she fled from being a member of. Somehow she was released and was taken to the roleplaying city's medlab to heal her wounds, many of which are quite serious; imagine being tortured by having a drug cocktail that consists of heroin AND crack cocaine injected into you! Now she's addicted, starving, and in hiding to not be caught again. But I'm looking for volunteers for people to take on the roles of those very gangsters.....I'll have to come up with a sign up roster thing for it....... Also, it's a shame to hear that the Emerald Viewer is no longer an accepted third-party viewer for logging in to Second Life..... What's worse is that Linden Labs (the people who run SL) has also recently bought Avatars United and is currently shutting it down as well as redoing a shitload of things. They already redid the official Second Life Viewer by putting out version 2.0 and here's my take: smooth foreign program that makes no sense to me. I mean it RUNS GREAT! That's pretty much it because I could hardly get used to the new layout. The n00bs would be able to get into it, but since I'm pre-2.0, I'd rather stick to the old one. So I have to try out either the other third party viewers such as Phoenix or Emergence, or I could get used to the awesome pretty smoothness of v2.0.

New Twitter--Apparently LL isn't the only one forcing it's products and users through a makeover: Twitter is going for the new layout and new ways to access yours and your fellow tweeps' status updates as well as "simplifying" the whole thing. Yes, I have everything there in front of me--retweets, followers, following, expansion pane for details, tabs for mentions and retweets, etc. The bad news would be the fact that with the wider set-up, there's less background to see, and I really want people to see my background! :( Also, on the new twitter, when you're on your home page, the F5 key will no longer work. It's a shame because I have to now use my browser's refresh button or press the "x number of new tweets" banner that shows up. PLUS, lots of it is built on Flash being up to date and awesomes, not like the out-dated shitty computer I was using earlier yesterday during work-study. But all of the graphics elements were present on there, on the shitty computer, which is AMAZING! With the old twitter, certain graphical elements would not load or it would take too fucking long to load that I have to either refresh or deal with it. But I think I am warming up to the New Twitter, despite it's small flaws.

Reviewing--Oh! And I started to share my opinion with the world by writing reviews on various things, such as Flash and browser games. Let's get this straight: flash games and browser games are not as popular as the video games stuff such as Xbox360, Nintendo Wii, PS3, etc, but they are probably second-most popular in that not everyone (are you paying attention? NOT EVERYONE) has a video game console like the ones I listed here. I, in fact, am one of those who have to live without her Halo gamertag and connecting on Xbox Live and the likes. So, I turned to flash games. YIPPEE! Especially since, recently, I have reviewed a couple of Nutcasenightmare's games in such detail. And since I tend to be very good at that sort of writing, I'll take it up on the side! (Here's a link to my reviews on Newgrounds! Most recent one submitted is on the top.)

So, summary: I'm alive sans Second Life + Xbox/Halo + much of my sanity....but I found new things to enjoy. Plus, I'm gonna be a critic--so watch out! Or else I'll slam your creations and you'll end up losing money! >:F Later, luvvaz!

(Oh, did I mention that I'm no longer co-owner of the Pour House? It was a mutual heated agreement loaded with drama. Either way, I left that dump. It can sink or swim for all I care. But I've got MY niche: roleplaying in Siden and in Insilico! *grits teeth* I just have ideas that I can't fucking get out of my head without roleplaying! At least I'm constructing my Insilico roleplay character's past in book form--no you may not read it.)

New Semester, New Classes--Fresh Start

Whoa! FREEEEEDOMMMMMM!!!!!!!! Woohooooo!

Got back to school the Sunday before my new classes start and omg--the comparison between being at home and being at college has a stark contrast: rules and limitations and responsibilities at home, where i'm being treated like a child........compared to the being responsible for yourself, your job, your other job on Second Life, your needs and not having mom and dad around to deal with them for you.......COLLEGE IS AWESOME!!!! \o/

But i realize now--i can't do what i just did last semester, which is goofing off and shirking off responsibilities and missing classes JUST BECAUSE I CAN....... -.-

That is what nearly made me fail. That is what made my dorm room an absolute disaster. That's what kept me from socializing. That's what is keeping me from getting refills on my meds--i should reallyreallyreallyreallyreally take care of that. :/

"I need some medication!/My brain is going crazy!/I'm gonna go insane if I don't get my MEEEDDDS!" (gesture from Second Life--i think i have full perms to it, so if you are on second life and you wanna contact me, im me.....i'll send it to you.)

Anyways, yeah--Pour House (on Second Life--no duh!) is back up and running: i'm Host Manager, looking forward to RAGE AGAINST THE MACHINE CONCERT! \o/ (Don't worry! Just sign up for free, get free stuff, and again, contact me! I'm on facebook--twice! one for my avatar and one for myself! i know--I'M CRAZY FOR DOING THAT! but the one for my avatar is for publicity reasons for virtual work....) Dealing with the aftereffects of drama that occurred while i was gone--does that mean i'm the glue for the group? O.o?

But yeah--back in full force, people! Vurtax, GMX7, DV8--KEEP IT PUNKASS OR DORK OUT!